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For all those times
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For all those times

For all those times, I didn’t dare scream, Kept quiet, Stayed silent , Never fought back, Ever told...
For All Those Times

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Your story: I wrote this poem, from experience and for all those who suffered childhood sexual abuse, sexual assault, trauma, unwanted harassment and attention, put in a position of vulnerability, domestic violence and situations where they were never given a choice to say no. 

FOR ALL THOSE TIMES

For all those times
You stripped away my layers 
Made me taste forbidden fruit 
Forced my hands to do your work
Penetrated beyond boundaries 
Hands snaked around my neck ready to silence the sound

For all those times 
I never said no.

For all those times 
I endured unwanted shadows creeping inside 
Felt cold metal of a barrelled gun pushed against my head 
Suffered perversion of injustice 
Paralysed my breath through restrained fear 
Offered my services on a plate 

For all those times 
I never said no.

For all those times
I quickened my footsteps down a dim lit path
Criss-crossed patterns in the road to shake away the followers 
Barricaded my sanctuary through blockades of furniture 
Feigned sleep to hasten your desire 
Gave you permission without speaking a word 

For all those times
I never said no.

For all those times
I didn’t dare scream 
Kept quiet
Stayed silent 
Never fought back
Ever told 

For all those times 
I never said no.

For all those times
I felt special
Chosen by you 
Thought you loved me
Wanted your attention 
Asked for more

For all those times 
I never said no.

For all those times 
I trusted you 
Loved you 
Despised you 
Feared you 
Missed you

For all those times
I never said no.

For all those times 
I trembled to speak 
Felt ashamed
Pushed the knife deeper in
Faded into darkness
Shattered into broken pieces 

For all those times 
I never said no 

For all those times
I am haunted daily 
I speak out
Fear will no longer silence me
My voice shall be heard 
Truth will resonate

For all those times 
I never said no. 

For all those times
I wasn’t asked 
I give myself permission 
My choice 
My body
My right 

For all those times 
I never said no.

For all those times 
I longed to say stop
Stop.
I am the adult 
With ownership 
Of my freedom 

For all those times 
I never said no.

For all those times 
You think you won
Of lives destroyed
We will stand strong
United in power 
Together as one

For all these times
We will say no.

©️ Elizabeth Shane 01.10.21 (CSA Survivor – author of Silhouette of a Songbird)

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